Tuesday, October 26, 2010


I laughed yesterday. When on an episode of How I Met Your Mother, a character puked in what should be a comedic manner. It was actually funny. I mentioned before that I hate when a TV show does this. But yesterday, it was funny. I laughed. I actually laughed. I couldn't believe it.

I've been working on my recovery program, and I had to write down the worst thing that could possibly happen. And I realized, it wasn't all that bad.

And how I would react to the worst that could happen. and I realized, If someone I was sitting next to on the airplane threw up, I could move. I'd ask the flight attendant for help. It doesn't have to be a big deal. I'm not going to have a heart attack. (at least not from a panic attack- I do need to lower my cholesterol though...) The panic can't hurt me, and eventually it ends. I have to redirect my focus and move on.

Besides, I can count on one hand the number of times anyone has thrown up near me on an airplane. Twice. (well, Alex puked a couple times, but he did it in the bag every time.) And that was when I was 17. That was 5 years ago. And I've only been sick on an airplane once. When I was 7. so that's 15 years ago. It's time to move on from those.

Thinking about real situations is making me anxious. I'm not cured yet. So I'm going to stop blogging and do my visualizations. Good night.

1 comment:

Gina said...

OK. I had to click on your earlier post and then on your support links to figure out what you are talking about, but I am glad I did.

I'm happy for you that you are seeing success, and I am intrigued to now look around and see how often this occurs, especially in movies and on TV. I bet it's a lot more than I realize!

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