I suffer from depression/anxiety. Lately, I’ve been so anxious that I’m having trouble eating. And as I have always been underweight to start with, this is very bad. On the bright side, I have my high school body back and I lost all the weight that I gained last year when I was depressed. (Only, not gonna lie-my breasts were not nearly this awesome in high school) On the other hand, I really didn't need to lose that weight. My "skinny jeans" are even a little loose now. I'm back in therapy and on anti-anxiety meds again, but all these things take time. My mom's coming in town tomorrow because I need some "mommy-ing" right now. But really I just need some prayers. So please pray that I can get my eating habits back on track, and that I can beat this anxiety. Thanks.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Today begins Lent. Traditionally, a time to give things up. But, right now, I can't think of anything to give up. I'm underweight, so nothing in the food sector. And I guess there's always Facebook, but that's the main form of communication with some of my friends. MLIA is a nice time suck, but what would giving it up really accomplish? TV shows are an option, but they're only on once a week, so it doesn't seem like that much. Reading for pleasure would be a huge sacrifice, but then what would I do in my free time? Watch more TV?
I once had a pastor who preached that instead of giving something up, you can begin something. And that really struck me. What can I start doing this Lenten season? I can try to devote myself more to God. When I'm at school, there isn't a church around that I like, so I usually don't go. And I get busy, and it can be very easy to not think about God often enough. Starting today, I will be reading Girlfriends in God, a free daily devotional on the internet. (Or for maximum convenience, delivered straight to my inbox.)
So the link is here, for anyone who would like to join me in this.